Post-Prelims Shit

Shall start this post with something cute:

This baby panda is soooo cute omgxz !!

It's probably how I look like now anyway.
Not the cute part, but the dark eye circles. Lol.

Okay, anyway.
So school started this week, or technically last friday.
And let me tell you it's fucking boring in school okay?
I find myself really lost sometimes like idk what to do next.
There's so much stuff to do and our schedule is so packed?!

Like normal lessons from 9amm-3/4/5pm ++
And if this is not enough teachers make us stay back for EXTRA supplementary.
Yes. It's on top of the supplementary allocated to each subjects fortnightly.
And then we have to come early for timed practice and what not.
Our school used to say we end lessons late because we start school late.
But seriously lo, we start only 1 hr later than other JCs, 2 hrs max; but we end school so much later?!
Somemore sometimes have to come back in the morning.
Lol. Fucking joke.

So tell me now what you want from me uh?
On average I wake up at 5am+, reach home 5/6pm+
I seriously already have very little time to consolidate and study,
and the school still give so much practice papers...
So how? Should I brush up on my basics and neglect all those piles of  papers?
Then end up getting scolded for not doing my work and giving the impression that's why I score badly.
I can't understand why they have to give us so much papers.
Especially for already weak students like me? ._.
Like dude, teachers,

You gotta use your damn brain.
Hais. I hate school :(
Can't wait for A's to end.
Until then I guess I'd be complaining and ranting alot here, lol.

On a happier note, I went out with 1215 girls after prelims for dinner ^^
Then the next day I head out with baby to town.
Shall blog about it another day.
Oh, and baby made me promise I'll study hard from now on.
And that's after he said I'm the slack-est girl he ever met. Tsk.
Have to go finish my math paper now. Sigh.

I feel sick; kinda feverish, heaty-ish, cold and everything shitty at the same fucking time.

是的，已经快到终点了，只要再坚持多一些。

All I wish for is ...

After chatting with someone, I've come to realise that all I wish for is a normal life. I don't need to be the best, I don't need to excel, I just need to live and be happy.

Some people may say I don't have 骨气, some might say I'm weak, others like boyf will just totally disagree with me. I mean, I don't blame them. I used to be like that, wanting to be the best in everything I do, to excel in my studies and my cca. That was back then... Those who have known and been with me long enough knows that I'm achieving less as time progresses. Lol. Well, let me just boast a little here okay? In primary school I used to be like quite good in my studies, got SYF award and I even made this scarf with my teacher for the PRESIDENT'S WIFE (YES I KNOW OMFG?!) Then in secondary school I did quite well in volleyball (2 zonals, 1 nationals placing I think) and all the sports day stuff. Now I'm all like failing every exams and tests. Yup, this is like a road to destruction lol.

But it's true that as I grow older, I find our education systems really screwed up and I don't really learn much useful stuff in the end. I thought it's the end result that's really important?!

Anyway, I've now realised that it's okay to not be the best. I mean, I admit I say that partly cos I'm not capable enough. (I mean, I really can't remember all those damn f-ing formulas and reagents and conditions and what not okay?! It's too much for my brain but I still can understand math problems okay? I'm not THAT bad yet but school is really boring D: Most of the time I look like this:



 But the more important reason is because I've realised I don't need to be the best, not even be great to be successful in life.

I don't need to be on honour roll, I don't need to score straight A's, I just need to know my goal and work towards it. I mean like, so what if you're the top scorer? It's not going to be reflected in your A levels cert right? Haha. I don't need to get straight A's to get into a business course, I don't need a scholarship too. So what's the point? I just need to do well enough what.

So right now all I need is to score enough to get into a business course in either NTU, NUS or SMU (Yes, it's impt that it'll be a public uni). And after that I'm going to work towards fulfilling my dream of starting my own business, yay! ^^

People and adults always ask me what business I want to start. I mean, I don't really know how to reply them? 80% of the time I give a different answer, hahah. Cause I REALLY don't know. Friends have also made suggestions to venture in the crafting field cause I make pretty gifts and cards (Yes, thank you and I'm not going to be all humble and say I'm not. But it doesn't mean I'm arrogant too!). I'll consider that too, but it all depends. I'm just going to see what's in and popular and sell that! That'll make me the most money, no? Like right now I tried selling a variety of stuff but the most hot selling are the inspired nb shoes. I also don't know why seriously. But if it makes my customers happy and it earns me money. Then well, why not! 

At this point some may say I'm not following my 'Be Happy' principle cause I'm just selling and setting up a business that makes me the most money but not what I love and want. But if you think again, whoever said you can only have 1 business? Nobody! I can sell something I like such as diy and craft stuffs, or some sweet treats or design and sell my own line of jewellery and apparels. At the same time I can just have a business that guarantees profit which I'll just oversee and leave the details and minor decisions to employees. So yup, I still can be happy and do what I love :D

Yes, I'm very ambitious. Hahahahah. I wana earn money, start a loving family and enjoy my life all at the same time. I don't really care what others think, really. Haters gonna hate and leave some bad comments D: Now all I have to do is to conquer A's lol. And even if I don't, I alrd have my backup plan up and going and yup, I'm determined to live my dreams. So f you haters.

So..... yup. Thanks for reading my really lengthy, out of point at times and quite nonsensical blogpost/rants. For those of you who aren't doing well in studies now like me, no worries! (Ok, now all my friends are going to say I'm being carefree again TT) There's still some time left (:

And...I shall go back to studying now :(



ps// I've decided to export my old blog posts cause some of them are really weird even I can't explain it okay TT Idk what I was thinking back then. Omg.
Only kept the more meaningful posts which I know I still type weirdly.